If I were to think of the future, I could possibly outline two ways of the future playing out. And then I would think of the benefits and downsides of either way, trying to weigh them in my mind to see which one my mind and heart would prefer more.
And that is what I’ve been doing every now and then lately. But there is a problem… both of the two, as I see it, bring to me a similar happiness at every stage when I’m going along it for they would enable different things and possibilities — and I know in the deepest part of my soul that I would miss the one I could not achieve no matter how far I would get on the chosen path.
So, the choice seems to be between two equal options, bringing equality in both good and bad. The same amount of things not happening as things happening, at least insofar as can be considered relevant within the category of “life-changing decisions”.
What to do, what to do?
I would think, that the way to solve this problem… is to just let things play out, and since one of the two is guaranteed, I will just let it happen. There is really no other way to go about it.